There was a time – for a very long time – when I swore I would never announce to the Facebook world that I was in a relationship. Felt too much like junior high for a rock star grown up biker chick like me. There was no need to shout my relationship status across the borders of social media – my business would always be my business – my life and mine alone. And then I met her……
In her green eyes I see the promise of all I dared not hope. In the early morning when shadows traced by morning sun dance upon the window sill – I struggle as I gently leave her side. I must be pulled by life and all of its tasks to lift myself from our bed. As I turn to gather one more look – I watch her smile into me and with the curve of her lips she claims another piece of my weary heart. To fall in love at this stage of the game is like heads up pennies all day long – early snow on Christmas morning- grand slam in the bottom of the 9th to win the series – only better. Life continues to challenge and change – there will always be drama with your momma and hurdles to surpass – but the good never ceases to fulfill and amaze me.
She brings me back to life. She wakens me from boredom’s sleep and takes me to a gentler place where I begin to recognize myself again. She teases me with her lips and caresses me with her hands that God most certainly made for touching me. Her body fits into mine and mine into hers and together there is an effortless connection that brings me such peace. She has become my home. She has taken the sharp edges and softened them – took all doubts and turned them into truths untold. She sees me – and I let her.
Even when she comes to me in moments undefined, as pieces of her past draw worrying lines upon her perfect brow – I fall deeper into her. Never hoping to stop myself – never doubting the inevitability of this love – never wanting anything more than to lie beside her and listen to the sweetness of her gently beating heart and believe that love does happen to once upon a time broken hearted skeptics like me.
There are the cynical souls lurking in the corners of every house. Too much – too young – too old – too new – too fast – too soon – what the hell must I be thinking? But the realization is simply that no two relationships can ever be compared – no love is ever like another love. There is no judgment that can be taken seriously – love is all there is. There are certainties in this world that need no explanation – no definition – no guidelines – no deadlines – no timetable – no boundaries – no rules or regulations. There is destiny in this life that brings two lives together and without rhyme or reason, circumstance or season – keeps those two lives together until the end of all things. There is a knowing in the eyes, a longing in the touch and a perfect rhythm in the heart of true love.
So….. my girl loves her Facebook – and I am more than OK with that. Post away baby….because with or without Facebook – the poets will write their poems. Singers will sing their songs. Lovers will whisper their promises and days will roll into months that will pass into years – and still there will be this timeless, certain kind of love. And the whole world really does need to know.
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About K. Guzman
Kathy grew up all over the US - lots of east coast time. She is a surfer girl with an unabridged curiosity. A woman whose mid life awakening continues to bring her to the place she was meant to be. Her degree in Journalism/Creative Writing from the University of Central Florida is being yanked from the archives and put to good use. Her two kids are grown and rock stars in this wild world – her Harley is ready for some serious summer miles – and her heart remains open to life, women and the possibilities each day brings.