What did you dream for yourself when you were a child? What are you doing with your life? Are you in the place you most want to be? Does your existence reflect the dreams that swam from your heart when you were young and so sure of things? Where are you right this minute and where do you want to be tomorrow? Stop and listen to the answers you might give and follow the direction of your heart – if you dare.
I know we all have to pay our bills (damn it) and be responsible (ha-ha) and ultimately grow up and be contributing citizens in this world. (Will someone define grown up for me please?). Reality is all around us in every moment and billing cycle, in every ringing alarm clock and broken appliance. The car is finally paid for and two weeks later this hunk of metal that has run without incident for 5 years needs a new engine. So the reality of day in and day out living and existing in this jacked up all or nothing civilization keeps us pounding away as the clock continues to tick behind us. So many are working so hard and investing so much in a promise we did not intend to make – not ever. I was never going to be a nine to fiver – never. I was going to write the book and live on the beach and drink good wine while the surfer girls played in the rolling waves as the sun set behind them lighting the water and casting their perfect shadows to the shore. There is the girl I know who wanted to be a dancer since she can remember and she is pushing paper for a conglomerate corporation and somehow forgets to dance. The woman who only has 15 credits left until she obtains that long sought after degree doesn’t make time to go back to school because her job and her kids and her life have blocked her from her dream. When did we just stop listening to the wild dreamer, the child in our heart? I wonder.
It is never too late to find a way to see the place inside of us where all the dreaming started. Dreams don’t have to be for the silly or the undecided. They don’t have to be stupid or pointless or too little too late. Our dreams can drive us to the very place our soul is demanding us to go – if we let them – if we listen and pay attention and deliberately believe that those dreams can indeed come true. It all comes back to our will and our perception and the belief and vision we have in ourselves. Don’t ever lose sight of who you are simply because someone else can’t see you.
I love Oscar Wilde. Crazy Irish derelict master of words that inspires the dreamer in my heart to continue to write and plan and believe that the answers I hear from the questions I ask myself are not so crazy or impossible after all. One of my most favorite things he ever wrote reminds me that my aspirations and dreams are never out of reach as long as I alone believe in all I think I know.
“We are all of us in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars”.
I will never stop looking at the stars – keeps the dream alive.
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About K. Guzman
Kathy grew up all over the US - lots of east coast time. She is a surfer girl with an unabridged curiosity. A woman whose mid life awakening continues to bring her to the place she was meant to be. Her degree in Journalism/Creative Writing from the University of Central Florida is being yanked from the archives and put to good use. Her two kids are grown and rock stars in this wild world – her Harley is ready for some serious summer miles – and her heart remains open to life, women and the possibilities each day brings.